It has been a long time since my last update but I wasn’t planning on writing again until your 1st birthday.
So much has happened in what feels like such a short space of time. You’re babbling away and quite happily saying “da da” and “yeah yeah”. You can even crawl! Every doctor and consultant is so happy with your progress. You have still been attending your eye, lung disease, neuro and phototherapy clinics and passing them all with flying colours. I’ll never ever be able to express in words how thankful I am for you to have no problems – I’m genuinely blessed.
I felt the need to update today as last night we took you to the hospital as you had been very wheezy. This wouldn’t be an issue for a full term child really but because of your lung disease we were advised to take you straight up. After being examined in hospital, we were told you have croup. You were given steroids to try reduce the swelling in your throat but to be honest I don’t think it has helped at all. Anyway. I was told that you were not allowed to come home and had to stay overnight.
Mummy was allowed to stay with you but I knew it was going to be a horrible night as we were put in a ward with 3 other sick babies who were up all night screaming and crying. You would normally sleep from 7pm – 7am so you were totally thrown out of your routine.
Being back in that hospital overnight was the worst feeling. My heart was just in my stomach the whole time and my head was filled wirh all the horrible memories. It never goes away. I ended up having a wee cry, couldn’t help it. Just came out. The last thing we ever want – that any parent wants – is to see you in pain.
You’re back home now but I’ve to watch you carefully and call an ambulance if I see you starting to struggle. Touch wood it doesn’t come to that, you’re a tough wee cookie.